Lake

We had another sunny, fun filled weekend at the lake. It was S's birthday and she was treated with yummy cupcakes from my favorite cupcake place. It was too hot for Kai to hang out on the dock, so we were stuck inside most of the time. She did get a little dock time in the early morning and fed the ducks with Mommy's help. I think she is going to love the Lake next year. I can't believe how big Kai is getting I am guessing she is 12lbs now. She has a Dr appt next week so we shall see. 

This is the most Sunny has checked out Kai since she has arrived. 

We are still waiting for Kai to find her feet. 

This is pre cry she was not into the photo shoot

Today I Cried

While I was playing with Kai in her room listening to Pandora kids radio, our wedding song played and I cried. I cried tears of happiness. I am filled with so much love. I look at Kai and I smile.  Looking at her never gets old I watch her play, sleep, smile and sometimes fuss. I miss her when I sleep and look forward to seeing her smile in the morning. I still can not believe that such a perfect, beautiful child is in my life. I am happy and that is the goal in life, Right? Happiness achieved. I like writing these posts, so Kai can look back and see how much she is loved and how happy she made us. 

New onesie with her name and today Kai met another Kai

I think Kai gets her happy from me...and celling fans:) 

Kai's First BBQ

Nope, no photos, because sometimes its best to just keep the phone stored and enjoy conversation. That's exactly what I did and it was perfect. Kai was amazing like always, she sat in her carseat and bouncer and just soaked in the sights, such a good baby.

I took Pea Pesto Dip to the BBQ it sounds gross but the bowl is always empty.

1 package frozen peas slightly dethawed
1 tub shredded parmesan
1/3 cup olive oil
3 cloves garlic, chopped
salt and pepper.

Put in food processor until smooth

It goes well on the parmesan bread from Panera.

3 things Kai loves

1. Bath Time, she is already perfecting the splash. 

2. Daddy, he is always greeted with smiles when he gets home from work.

3. Her all time favorite thing is the celling fan. She is mesmerized by celling fans and will coo and smile at them for 30 minutes  straight and that is a long time. 

Smiles

Kai is a smiler and I am in love with every single one of them:) Here is something to make you smile. :)

Chocolate Grahams

Does anyone remember these little gems? I had forgotten about them, until one day I stubbled upon them on an end cap, which is how most of the odd items end up in my cart. The end caps gets me every time. I am like "this ginormous bag of what cha ma call its looks like a good idea." and in the cart it goes. Anyway, back on track, I brought home the chocolate grahams and started eating them when I was craving chocolate and it works. It takes care of the cravings and not as calorie packed as normal chocolate. Unless you decide to dip them in peanut butter or make a little frosting sandwich. Both delicious  options. 

Avocado pasta

I made this for dinner tonight. I thought is was great and super easy. Wyatt thought it was too lemony. So if you are  not a lemon fan cut back a little. I got the recipe here. http://www.thelondoner.me/search/label/recipe

I just stuck 5 avocados, juice from 2 lemons, 3 cloves garlic, little salt,  1/3 cup olive oil, and 2 table spoons pesto into a food processor. I boiled some spirals noodles cause I like spirals and then sprinkled on parmesan and tomatoes. Yum!!

Zoo time

Kai went to the Zoo, but it was really hot, so my mom and I speed walked through it. We really only went so Kai could see the seals swim overhead but there was a 2 hour wait to see them. Next time my love. 

Maelani Bear arrived

I ordered the Maelani bear a year ago or more. At the time I was looking for anything that would provide me with comfort. I heard of Molly Bears, which is a great organization that sends a hand made bear the same weight as your baby.  I remember the first time I held Maelani, she was handed to me with all her million important tubes, wires and IV's that were keeping her alive.  I was terrified her ET tube would fall out and she would die in my arms. She was so tiny wrapped in many warm blankets and what struck me as I held her super still and afraid to move, was that she had no weight. When you hold a baby you feel the weight of them in your arms. I could only feel the blankets, warm in my arms.  I could see my beautiful girl, but I could not feel her because she was so light. I think only 1 lb at that point. I still remember holding her like it was yesterday. As I lifted the Maelani bear out of the box it to does not really have any weight in my arms. So light and perfect just like my Maelani. 

I can not say that the pain of losing her has lessoned, but maybe it has changed not so raw and in your face but more filled with questions that will never be answered.  I wonder, what would she look like now? Did her hair stay dark? What makes her smile? Would she like rocks and bugs like her Mom did? There is not a day in this home that her name is not spoken aloud. She is very much a part of this family. She is the little good angel that sits on Wyatt's and my shoulder reminding us to do good things and we are thankful for her reminders. She is so loved and missed. 

Link to Molly Bears http://www.mollybears.com/

Maelani Bear

Poop

Being a Mom is awesome and I am so thankful to have this job. I love it every day, even days like today when Kai left me big surprises throughout the day. Her first surprise was after I got her dressed in her white pants and we were playing on the couch with her toys. When all of a sudden her white pants matched the brown couch. The second big surprise was at supper time. She was super happy and playing in her bouncer and I thought "Yea, I get to eat supper with Wyatt." Then I hear Wyatt freaking out,  I look and the bouncer and her leg is brown. Its like the diaper didn't  catch any of the poop and was completely bypassed. Supper was quickly forgotten and Kai got a bath. Some days are crappy and I don't mind, I am perfecting my Mommy skills. 

Right before the big blow out. 

I had one bite of this yummy fajita before the second blow out

This is the cute outfit that she had on for the first time today it was covered in poop, I mean covered. 

Kai's first play date

Kai had her first play date at a gelato shop. Being the overly protective, if not slightly crazy Mom, I was a little nervous--especially when another little girl touched her foot, gasp! In my head, I was thinking "Ahhhh! That little girl is kinda close to her!" and all I could think about was, what if she falls on Kai, or touches her face or something completely normal like that. Kai survived and so did Mom.  Hopefully many more successful play dates in the future. 

Yes, you have seen this outfit a few times on the blog and that is because I love, love this outfit and hat.  I was silly and bought the outfit in her current size which apparently only lasts a few weeks so its already getting a little snug and I'm trying to get the goodie out of it. 

Things I'm eating

I usually get stuck on foods. I like to eat the same foods a lot for a month or so and then I switch to something else.  Right now I'm stuck on hard boiled eggs, cucumbers and 1 2 3 dressing with a side of garden tomato. It's very summery.

Dressing
one part vinegar
two parts sugar
three parts cream or half and half
with a little salt and pepper

First 4th love

We celebrated  Kai's first 4th of July at the Lake. We have had a great time and have a few more days  here. Wyatt likes fishing and I like feeding the fish, which you think would be synergistic, but it's not, because we have a rule he can't catch the fish I'm feeding.

Kai has really started to develop a little personality this week. She has found her fist and loves sucking on it or anything really. She spends a fair amount of time on her play mat smiling at her toys and making noises that I fall in love with hearing. I think she says "hi" and I'm not surprised because she's  brilliant:)   Here are lots of photos of Kai.  I could not decide which one was the cutest because she is the most adorable baby around.  (Mommy biased)

Slutty Brownies

No I did not name these brownies, but I sure did bake them and eat them up because they are GOOD. I found the recipe here http://www.thelondoner.me/2011/06/slutty-brownies.html. They are super easy to make and helped make the 4th of July a successful vacation. We of course topped the brownies with Randy's frozen custard because why not, might as we go all the way with the daily calorie intake.

Brownie layers

Brownies
Oreos
Chocolate chip cookies

Kai went spelunking

Kai is very advanced and wanted to go spelunking today. We started her out with a  beginner cave called Bridal cave. She had fun and wants to do it again:) 

Wyatt saw a Jesus face. Do you see it?

The big one

Wyatt and my dad love to bottle fish and this morning they got a big one. A blue cat around 40lbs. He was released back into the Lake.