Fall Pictures

We snapped a few shots tonight in our back yard. She is wearing another Mini Boden outfit. Love her..

 

goat

Since I was young I have always wanted a goat, and this (non existent) goat's name has always been "Chloe Madison." I had thought Kai would love goats as much as her Mom does, but as it turns out, she was 'unimpressed.'  That's ok; she will come around with time.  Perhaps once she sees the goat Grandpa and Grandma Hadley is going to get her Mommy, she will want one of her own.  ;-)

I get to pick out Chloe Madison as soon as I go out to visit.  Yea!

Hulk Hogan

Mini Boden and more

I am in love with the Mini Boden fall line. I love the vintage feel it has with the cute little details. Other little clothing lines I love are Matilda Jane and Persnickety. Cute. Cute. Cute...

http://www.bodenusa.com/en-US/Baby-0-4yrs-Clothing.html

http://www.matildajaneclothing.com

http://www.persnicketyclothing.com

Mini Boden jersey dress

What I'm Eating

Frozen Twix Bars..... The Halloween candy isle at Target gets me every time.

Pumpkin Patch

We ventured to a pumpkin patch after Kai had her shots. She was not as smiley, but I think she had a little bit of fun. We may have to try it again when she is feeling better.

6 month check up

Kai had a play date this morning then off to get her 6 month shots.  Kai was 15lb which is 25-50% in weight and head size was 16.5 inches which is 25-50%. Her Height is 26.75 which is 75%. So she is still tall and skinny.  She did really well with the first shot, but unleashed the teapot scream for 2nd  and 3rd shot. Poor thing. I don't blame her, I got my flu shot today too and my arm is sore.

Kai is the ball pit with her friend.

Loved the ball pit

6 Month Half Birthday

Kai you are 6 months today. Its hard to believe, you are so big.  You are eating pureed fruits and veggies. Except  peas, your not a fan of peas.  You can sit up by yourself pretty good, but not good enough that I would leave you that way by yourself. You can roll to the the right from your back, but so far refuse to roll to the left. You are always jabbering and blowing bubbles. You still love the jumper, going for walks, peek-a-boo and the pick up game. You are perfect in every way and you are so loved everyday. I am forever grateful to have you in my life.  I love you Kai.

I was really missing my girl and I looked up and there was am M.
 Do you see it? 

October Feelings

October has always been a hard month for me since Maelani's birth. I always miss her, but when October rolls around I am reminded that she should be a year older, a few inches taller and blowing out her candles, but she is not. I cry, I cry a lot in October. I am angry. I am sad. I remember those 16 days she was with us like they were yesterday and I want them back. I want to be by her side. I want to hold her so bad its painful. I feel disappointed in myself that I can not hold my head up am smile right now, because I know that is what Maelani would want.  Wyatt and I have made it a goal that Maelani's legacy will be lived through us in the daily good we do, with kind acts in her name. But sometimes I can not smile, I cry. I cry for so many reasons. I cry because I wanted Kai to meet her and play with her and tell her secrets like sisters do. I want my little Maelani back, but she is not coming back and that is something that after almost 2 years I am still not comfortable with. I still think, it's not fair.  Why did this happen? Is she up there somewhere with my Great Grandma and Grandpa? It is so hard to put my feelings on this screen. To portray the rawness and how present the sadness is after almost 2 years. I hope someday I can get through this time with out these tears and celebrate her birthday as a birthday should be celebrated with fond memories and smiles.  As I sit here and cry I know it's not this year, but I hope its soon. I love you Maelani always and forever. 

Nobody put's Baby in the corner

Kai is in love with this jumper and we stuck her in the corner so she could jump to her hearts content without Arlo interfering.