I would like nothing more than to run off and put my feet in the ocean, so I could feel a little closer to my little Maelani. I want to hunker down and put my head under the covers and dream of running along the ocean with Maelani at my side, but I know this is not an option.
There is Kai, who I am eternally grateful for. Kai starts everyday at 7:30 am sharp, by saying "Mama Dadda" when I open her door. It is stated as a question, as in "Mama, [where's] Dadda?" I answer, "Dadda is working."
Without fail, her next words after changing her diaper, are "Eee Eee" (what the monkey says). We head back to my bedroom, climb into bed with her by my side and watch 'Curious George'. I know I am blessed with Kai. She is amazingly perfect. She is perfect in the way she runs with her hands over her head, and the way she walks while dragging her dollies by their hair and with her infectious smiles. So while I am wanting to put my head under the covers and dream, all I would see is my beautiful daughter Kai with a smile on her face saying Eee Eee.
I know things are just the way they are supposed to be. I will probably never understand the reason, but I know it's going to be OK. Maelani will see to it. 3:33
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